Busy?!?

Busy?!?

How busy can a person be - not being able to write although writing is one of my favorites during leisure time.
I have to educate myself once again. Being busy is something we often pretend to be although in most cases it is kind of not structuring our life and not taking enough time for the things we love.
It's almost 2013 and I normally should have had enough time during the last days to just sit down and do things I want to do. Instead of doing it I snuggled up in front of the TV and watched all the Christmas fairy tales - maybe that was what I needed but my book was almost looking at me annoyed and my mind told me that it's wasted time as I didn't do anything creative or productive.
TV is really something which is bringing me away from stuff I could do better during that time. Nevertheless - I found the way back to write at least today. This is what I mean with educating myself, I should make a habit like taking one hour per day I concentrate on books and writing, as it should become daily routine after a while if I stick to it. On the other hand there's a small problem, do I really want it to be routine? No, and I say no because for me routine and creativity or relaxing time has nothing in common. Maybe it's just my impression but if I hear the word routine I'm thinking about things we have to do, things I do without thinking too much, cleaning is routine, washing is or asking the trash out, but nothing like writing thoughts down. My thoughts change as does my enthusiasm to write about something. There are times when I love todo it but there are also times when I cannot calm down as I know that some things need to be finalized before I have the quiet surrounding to let my thought flow.
Bottom line - I was too busy.
Shortly after my fiancé left Germany for work I was buried with work to finish before driving to my parents for the Christmas celebrations.
Here I am now, sitting in my old children's room, and finally writing again.
There happened so much during the past months that I started several posts already but it's too confusing to bring one to an end right now. I can't wait to get them finalized and posted and this is another point. Am I busy now with writing although I have no idea if people like what I'm writing or not - I will not start to stress myself more than needed. In the end I'm believing that everyone who's thinking a bit in the same way I do understands how it is and also understands that my blog is a real life persons blog. Life never goes as you plan it and it is ok - otherwise it would be boring, wouldn't it?
Some drafts are already written and I hope to find the right time and place during the next days and weeks to tell my story, to write about how it is now, being engaged although miles apart, being entirely happy although missing is hard, all the stories I want to write and give them a second thought, remember these times as they were so precious and moving forward into an exciting future.
You see, I need to sort my thought because otherwise no one would understand what I'm writing about, my mind is full of so many impressions.

Keep the faith and already a happy 2013!